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I made a new icon! It was my most recent Facebook profile picture (until Ashley made me change that for the picture in which I look ridiculous), but I shall change it back soon enough! I chose the name Kanzeon because it is the Buddhist bodhisattva of "Mercy." Though this (Kanzeon) is the Japanese epithet for her, her original Chinese name is Quan Yin (and variants). Her name translates to, "Observing the sounds (or cries) of the world." I was originally introduced to her because she was on the back of my Bagua pendant, and so I did a bit of research after the person I bought it from sent me a little bit about her -- as well as a small card with her on it as a token of appreciation; I bought the pendant from Australia! Basically, as legend says, she had her arms split into thousands of different arms to better aid the world. So, I see a lot of altruism in her. However, she realizes she can't help everyone (among other legends), which is why I relate to her. -- I can't help everyone, either because it would be unwise to try, or because it's impossible to ever succeed. The Buddhists are the ones who 'created' her -- which should say a lot, as many people criticize Buddhists for their idealism, yet even they are aware that no one can truly help everyone -- not even a bodhisattva. There's more, but yes, that's the inspiration for my most recent user pic. When I switched servers in WoW, I renamed my character Kanzeon, and I am very glad with my healthy change in aliases. -- Apparently, many people have chosen this alias across many different servers, which would make sense since WoW is accessible to the entire world. Here is an article about her on Wikipedia for those interested: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quan_Yin
Anyway -- In reference to the subject of this entry: Definitive moments aren't always planned. Sometimes, they just happen, and one must look back and realize what they truly meant after time has long passed. It seems silly for me to mention this considering that the event I'm going to mention does not follow the archetype I wish to present -- of having a moment be special, but not definitive at the time. -- It was definitive, but in realizing how definitive it was, I also realized the other choices I've made in the past, the other events that have happened to me, that have shaped me, but weren't a huge deal at the time. So, I suppose my mentioning it is to show the other side, because in this entry, it is unlikely I will do it much justice.
I've said a few times that the weekend when I saw Jan, met Tom's girlfriend, and then had a few fights with my parents was a very powerful affecter on my life... but I still have yet to show how. Well, I'm not going spend much time on the day I saw Jan, or the day I met Tom's girlfriend. Following a short explanation, I'm going to skip straight to the Monday following -- when I had a huge argument with my parents...
( Entry of momentous proportions. )
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